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My Prayer Oh Lord by Stephanie Davey

I chose to write this prayer to the Lord because he reminded me on my regular Saturday run that I needed him and that I cannot rely on my own strength. I had a fall this weekend and did not see it coming. I spasmed my back and my left leg. I could not put pressure on one side and I felt helpless. I've been moving around by using the couch to lift my self up. Through this Psalm, God faithfully shows that he carries us and will never leave us. 

My Prayer Oh Lord (inspired by Psalm 86)

Oh Lord, take my heart as I continue to pray through a season of healing, fruitfulness and contentment in my life. I know worry is real, and that's what scares me and people around me. Worry that eats you from the inside out. Worry that seems to linger and continues to follow me everywhere I go. I pray for perseverance, but I do not even know what I am persevering for:

1 Hear me, LORD, and answer me,
    for I am poor and needy.
2 Guard my life, for I am faithful to you;
    save your servant who trusts in you.

3 You are my God; have mercy on me, Lord,
    for I call to you all day long.
4 Bring joy to your servant, Lord,
    for I put my trust in you. 

When I think about what I prayed at the beginning of the year, I am saddened that I didn't have more faith or that I didn't pray enough. I feel struck down at my lack of purpose with what you have planned for me and my blindness that traps me from building a deep relationship with you. 

I have come to realise that in my desires, I did not see you already at work, and you answered my prayers before I even asked. I prayed for a dear friend to come to know you. To know your love and your deep abundance. I admit I prayed half-hearted because I prayed this prayer so many times. Funnily enough, the other thing I prayed for is patience. Patience that is thoughtful and compassionate. It wasn't planned, it was just an ordinary call we had with each other and then she said it, she knows you. I cried inside. I cried because of so much joy for she knows you. How did I not realise you had answered both prayers? 

I laugh at one of my resolutions I made this year to run a marathon. Just as the reluctant child eats their vegetable so that they will get their ice cream, I had a plan to run every week so that I could get to that finish line. So, I began going and going and running and running.

It's been five months, but sometimes I do not know why I am running. Lord hear my cry, am I running away or closer to you? I feel, at times, I do not know the difference. Often, I think if I slow down, then someone will pass me by, and that I will not accomplish what I want. But I do not know what I want:

5 You, Lord, are forgiving and good,

abounding in love to all who call to you.

6 Hear my prayer, Lord;

listen to my cry for mercy.

7 When I am in distress, I call to you,

because you answer me. 

8 Among the gods there is none like you, Lord;

no deeds can compare with yours.

9 All the nations you have made

will come and worship before you, Lord;

they will bring glory to your name.

10 For you great and do marvellous deeds; 

you alone are God.

Oh Lord, hear my cry, I pray for calmness and peace that not only covers me but surrounds those around me. That I may be a light for those who have not seen the light yet. I know that I was created to have a deep and meaningful relationship with you and that it is in my core not just to know you but to be fully known by you. I yearn for an intimate relationship with you today, tomorrow, and beyond: 


11 Teach me your way, LORD,
    that I may rely on your faithfulness;
give me an undivided heart,
    that I may fear your name.
12 I will praise you, Lord my God, with all my heart;
    I will glorify your name forever.

13 For great is your love toward me;
    you have delivered me from the depths,
    from the realm of the dead.
14 Arrogant foes are attacking me, O God;
    ruthless people are trying to kill me—
    they have no regard for you.

15 But you, Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
    slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.
16 Turn to me and have mercy on me;
    show your strength in behalf of your servant;
save me, because I serve you just as my mother did.
17 Give me a sign of your goodness,
    that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
    for you, LORD, have helped me and comforted me. 

Lord, help to keep me in perfect peace, oh my thankfulness to you for what you have already done in my heart. You have allowed me to have joy, to have hope and to find comfort in your control. As I sit resting on the couch, I am reminded that I need you. I need you every day, and I can not rely on my own strength, you are my rock. 
Till tomorrow

I want to encourage you wherever you are reading this prayer to write your own. Spend a few minutes writing your own prayer to the Lord. Give your heart to him, your worries, fears, questions, joys and desires. Delight in God's wonder and let him fill you up.